Dear Queen,

I sit in this room quiet. Asking. All in search of a response and a VALID one for that. Many questions go unanswered but still I keep asking. And thinking. Probably, just probably, one day I will get an answer. Never will I stop asking till I find an answer.

I sit in this room thinking. Yes I know that everything with a start has to have an end but I still keep thinking. At what point did the rain start beating us (or is it me)? When did the floods wash away the fire that was slowly yet confidently igniting and burning from within? When did we stop complementing each other? Why me? Why us? Why now? It hurts me. It pains me. It breaks me. But what can I do? I will cry and stop! I will talk but no one will seem to fully understand. I will keep asking but will not find any satisfying answers. Nothing between us changed (at least I dint). In actual sense, I am a character who died (rather prematurely) in your script.

Frequently, I see you and sweet memories of our times in the past cloud my mind. Your tender touch and soft kiss always treasured. Your care and concern always missed. Your love always esteemed…

Many questions I will ask and probably not find answers but one thing still remains. I am THANKFUL! Thankful for the spiritual nourishment that brought us closer and finally together, for the happy moments we had that always left us smiling and for the fights that made us grow stronger in this bond of love. I am thankful for the inspiring motivations that constantly uplifted us, for the musical times we sang away, for the sumptuous meals we shared, for the lengthy walks in the park we never hoped would end, for the late night calls that left us yearning to be in each other’s presence more and more, for the texts that were always exciting to read, for the warmth that your family gave me… I would go on and on and on… But one thing I am sure of is that I am THANKFUL for everything!

Now you are gone. I know there is nothing that you will do differently after all this but I have to move. Better still, move aside and move on! I’ve got stand up, dust myself and keep moving! The journey is long and I have to keep focused. As hard as it may be I have to keep moving. No matter how much I hurt, I’ve got to keep moving. No matter what people say, I will keep moving.

Forever,
King.