Looking up...

Severally, I have gone through the fire for probably all the wrong reasons. I have been hurt, frustrated, trampled on... At times I have felt used, misused, abused and later accused. But in all, I have chosen to look at the bright side of life. It reminds me of the fact that I need not look to the left, right, front or behind when faced with situation that threatens to rid me of happiness. All I need to do is to look up to my heavenly Father.

They say that behind every cloud is a silver lining and I guess this is true.
But finding the bright spot behind each cloud is largely up to you!
If everything in sight looks hopeless, try to find one spot that doesn't look quite so dark.
It doesn't matter what or how!
When there's no where to turn that you can see, it's time to look above.
Our Lord will come into your heart and fill it with His love!

Think and pray until you see, just a glimmer of light.
Then one by one toss the rest behind you, until you make it bright!
Talking to God each day as hard as it is will help. Your troubles He will share and burdens bear.
So if you're troubled with no where to turn,
Just talk to Him - He's always there!

My pal says, "If life seems like a Loss, take it to the Boss, who died on the Cross and you'll have a reason to Floss." This tickles me! Remember, if care is too small to be made into a prayer, then is too small to be made into a burden! God calls upon each one of us to cast every care to Him NOW!

Cheers!

Letting go

When in High school, I was the entertainment captain. There were days when I would have music served on the entertainment table with greater emphasis on Reggae and Ragga music, thereby earning myself a title Reggae captain rather than Entertainment captain. One of the most favorite of songs that I loved to play was Beenie Man’s Let him go. The first line of the song would go like, “Gal if you’re fed up with your boyfriend, let him go…” This translated to physically letting go of the relationship. What in other terms would be referred to as being dumped or booted in this current age. The problem with that song was that it never continued to tell what to do after you have booted them.

I am more interested in the life after the breakup and letting go! At what point can you comfortably and confidently say that you have let go of your partner? How do you get to know that you are actually not convincing yourself that you have let go or have just pushed it to the back of your mind and every opportunity you bump into each other will always awaken the demons in you? This and many more questions go through my mind as I try to understand how to let go.

Dear Queen,

I sit in this room quiet. Asking. All in search of a response and a VALID one for that. Many questions go unanswered but still I keep asking. And thinking. Probably, just probably, one day I will get an answer. Never will I stop asking till I find an answer.

I sit in this room thinking. Yes I know that everything with a start has to have an end but I still keep thinking. At what point did the rain start beating us (or is it me)? When did the floods wash away the fire that was slowly yet confidently igniting and burning from within? When did we stop complementing each other? Why me? Why us? Why now? It hurts me. It pains me. It breaks me. But what can I do? I will cry and stop! I will talk but no one will seem to fully understand. I will keep asking but will not find any satisfying answers. Nothing between us changed (at least I dint). In actual sense, I am a character who died (rather prematurely) in your script.

Frequently, I see you and sweet memories of our times in the past cloud my mind. Your tender touch and soft kiss always treasured. Your care and concern always missed. Your love always esteemed…

Many questions I will ask and probably not find answers but one thing still remains. I am THANKFUL! Thankful for the spiritual nourishment that brought us closer and finally together, for the happy moments we had that always left us smiling and for the fights that made us grow stronger in this bond of love. I am thankful for the inspiring motivations that constantly uplifted us, for the musical times we sang away, for the sumptuous meals we shared, for the lengthy walks in the park we never hoped would end, for the late night calls that left us yearning to be in each other’s presence more and more, for the texts that were always exciting to read, for the warmth that your family gave me… I would go on and on and on… But one thing I am sure of is that I am THANKFUL for everything!

Now you are gone. I know there is nothing that you will do differently after all this but I have to move. Better still, move aside and move on! I’ve got stand up, dust myself and keep moving! The journey is long and I have to keep focused. As hard as it may be I have to keep moving. No matter how much I hurt, I’ve got to keep moving. No matter what people say, I will keep moving.

Forever,
King.

CHRISTIAN COMMITMENT

I have not known the author of this article but believe you me, it is a commitment that I not only subscribe to but aspire to live by. It is my story; it is my prayer.

I am part of a fellowship of the unashamed. I have stepped over the line; the decision has been made. I’m a Disciple of Jesus Christ. I won’t look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I’m finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colourless dreams, tamed visions, mundane talking, cheap living, and dwarfed goals. I no longer need pre-eminence, prosperity, position, promotion, recognition, or popularity. I don’t have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded.

I now live by faith, lean on his presence, walk by patience, lifted by prayer, and labour by power, my face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven; my road is narrow, my way rough, my companions few, my guide reliable and my mission clear. I cannot be bought, deluded, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifices, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, or meander in the maze of mediocrity. I won’t give up, shut up, let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, and preached up for the cause of Christ.

I am a disciple of Jesus. I must stand till he comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me and when he comes for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me-my banner will be clear.

With you who strengthens me, YES I CAN!

Someone once said that you can never have too much not to receive and neither can you have too little not to receive. Recognizing that we do not own it all and that we equally lack at some point no matter how little we think we may be lacking is a profound truth that we must all learn to appreciate.

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Chao!